Well, I've disappeared. Or so it would seem by looking at my lonely journal. I would have thought that getting a lap top would have given me the opportunity to write more often. In fact it is quite the opposite. Now I spend lots of time in public places on a computer.
I shall update starting on Thursday. Thursday was an eventful day- yet very uneventful. I did not go to class- as it was cancelled. I did not go to orchestra, as it was cancelled. I did however drive to the REC centre in snow squalls to a job interview that I'm now beginning to feel that I did horribly on. I just wish there were some way to know what I could have done to make it a better interview. IT seemed so relaxed- so calm as if I got it...but then I saw Trisha on the weekend during work training and I just couldn't tell- well, no, that's not true. I felt as if my inital instincts were wrong and that I didn't get the job. It's hard to tell. My mind is fixated on it... it's what I've always wanted- what I've been working for for years. My heart will be broken if I don't get it. Yet, it is out of my hands. They said I would know by Friday of this week if I didn't get it. I guess I will know when I don't receive a call by Friday that I don't have a job for the summer :( I'm the most pesimistic girl alive! Although if I keep really pesimistic and get the job I will be so over joyed the world will be a fantastic place to be. Disappointed by expecting it? Excited by getting it? I say that keeping pesimistic is the way to go on this one.
Friday: School Cancelled- again. The reason this was nice is because it pushed my Monday exam to WEdnesday. Thus, I'm lying here contemplating studying for it. Something I really ought to do- but can't yet bring myself too... I just don't feel well enough. Actually- that's a lie, I've studied lots. It just currently is not sinking in. More time is good though, very good.
I also went over to Shuborno's to practise for my karate belt test. Came home, ate some dinner, and chilled with Melissa and Zamin. I love those kids. I really wish I got to spend more time with them. I feel so much more like myself when I get time with them. I have this "lost" feeling that has come from being in 3rd year without any specific place/goal. I know I want to teach- I don't know what, I don't know where... I don't know who! so many questions. It was good to spend time with my friends who just know me as me, no questions asked.
Saturday: Work training from 10-1. That was a bunch of fun. A good group of people that I get to work with for March break camp. IT's defintely good times. I was a bit uncomfortable when my engagement became the massive part of conversation. I don't particularly like being the centre of attention= and it certainly came off that way. Not that it is a bad thing however, it was just odd... At least it was over something good. I'm pretty pumped to work for the City for march though... god I hope I get that job. *keeping fingers crossed, certainly can't think about anything else right now*
After work training I headed over to Karate. We got our orange belts! I messed up in some pretty rediculous area's that I've never messed up at before. I really wish I had been more prepared. IT was embarrasing for Trevor to do that much better at it than me. Sensei Kam has big ideas about what Shuborno and I should be able to accomplish. I remain a skeptic. We'll see though- I'll keep working hard, I'll keep being dedicated. That's all I can do, right?
Post Karate was time to head to London. Oh my goodness what a scavenger hunt! What a party! it was really good times. I wasn't going to drink... then they brought out the jello. Needless to say a mistake.. but without horrible consequences. Therefore, not really a mistake at all. What do people do at parties? Come on!
Sunday: I finally got home from the London extravaganza and crashed.. I slept for a good 16 hours (with 1/2 hour to get dinner in the middle). That brings me to today:
Monday: I have a cold. I feel miserable.. so I am procrastinating. My class was cancelled tonight do to weather. I was contemplating skipping just because I want to sleep. Very relieved to see that I don't need to make such a decision. I'm not fond of skipping - especially when the class is only once a week. However, class earlier today was too much of a challenge and it was only review. Coughing and sneezing etc. on people is generally not advisable.
Anyway- I'm heading to sleep... need a good nap for me
Night Night all...