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Feb. 6th, 2009 @ 10:39 am To Do List
I have decided that I need to make a to-do list and have it in a place that I will stop losing it. Naturally my journal seems appropriate.

TO DO:
1) Finish theory assignments - take them to Erna's (This weekend)
2) Make up piano test/dictation? I really hope so
3) Study for History midterm next week. (Feb.12)
4) Practise violin
5) Scholarship application with video (Feb.15)
6) Job Application for the summer (Feb.13)
7) Shuborno's birthday (Feb. 11)
8) Figure out when to hang out with Sitelle and Denise over reading week
9) Make up lessons for students
10) Study for theory midterm
11) Study for Phil midterm
12) History group project (31st of March)
13) Jazz presentation (10th of March)
14) Concert Review for Jazz (due the 10th of February)
15) Cash cheques (now)
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Oct. 28th, 2008 @ 08:49 pm gah
gah school gah.
Very tired.
Little motivation
So much housework
So much homework.

I wish I had an elf who could do it for me.
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Nov. 19th, 2007 @ 12:56 pm peanuts
Current Mood: amused
I went to the allergist this morning for my official peanut challenge. This is taken when you test negatively on the skin test. First what they did is they created a solution from a fresh peanut (what is called fresh food testing), put it on my arm and pricked it with a needle. 10ish minutes later the doctor came in and said that I had in fact tested negatively.

The next step was to actually eat peanuts. My whole life I have walked around with the concept that peanuts were like poison. So to me, this was like being told to drink bleach. Regardless I did it. The first step was to lick a peanut. It was horrible. I think I gave that face that kids give when they eat something really horrid. Liver or those peas in a baby food jar for instance. 20 minutes later I had to eat 1/10 of a peanut. This was even worse. I didn't react though... another 20 minutes passed and I had to eat 1/2 peanut. Another 20 minutes and I got to eat a full peanut. Once that time passed I had to eat 10 peanuts. Shuborno was laughing pretty hard while I was trying to eat the 10. He said something about trying to spite him by just eating one after another without making a face. I tried really hard to get through it, and did successfully.

We ended up talking to another guy in the waiting room. He understood what I was going for. He was also allergic to nuts, but also to shellfish. 9 am and he had to do a shrimp testing. He looked at us and said "man, I should have brought sauce". I can't imagine having to eat shrimp for breakfast lol.

So that's that. I'm no longer allergic to peanuts. Sometime this week I need to go for blood work to have it sent off so that walnuts and hazelnuts can be tested as well. If they come out negative for allergic reaction then I get to go through this process two more times. Until then I must say it is some what of a relief to know that I won't die if I eat something with a peanut in it or with peanut oil.

I think I may go buy a drumstick... I've never had one. They always looked really good and I was really jealous of people when they got to eat them.

I guess there are some perks to growing up. HA!
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Nov. 15th, 2007 @ 04:30 pm The marathon begins
Current Mood: anxious
The marathon begins...
Mike and Anita left today around 2 pm. They will return next Wednesday sometime... I have Trevor and Ian for the duration. They took Emily with them. I will miss Emily greatly - she causes some great comic relief in my life - also she knows me well. For instance the day I said "Emily, I hate my life" (I realize you shouldn't say things like that to a 4 year old but that's beside the point... she asked me what was wrong, so I responded accordingly) Emily responded "Lizzie, you don't hate your life you hate your dilaties". Dilaties of course really means "responsibilities".

The plus side of things - They are okay with Shuborno staying over while they are away. I will need him for my sanity. He has also kindly agreed to step up when I am unable to take kids places etc because of school or teaching or what not. He is also going with me to my allergist appointment on Monday for my fresh food peanut testing (yes, I may have outgrown the nut allergies... but all can not be cleared until I go through the full testing.)
Also - Anita and Emily and Mike not being home means during the day I have the house to myself. I need to utilize this to get my essays done. This will not be a small task - and I am unsure if I will be capable of doing so between Friday afternoon, Monday afternoon, and Tuesday...

On the down side of things - For whatever reason I've been feeling pretty anxious about taking care of the boys. This is strange for a number of reasons - 1) I've done it many many times before 2) they are much older than the other times I've taken care of them. But the flip side to that is that they are much older than they were before and so the kind of responsibilities that I need to have are different - ex. guiding them on their way for getting ready for school. It seemed much easier when I could just do it for them, drop them off and say have a nice day. They also have more activities than they used to have. Especially Trevor - and keeping them straight and making sure everyone is in the right place at the right time is a full time job!

We'll see how it goes. As long as no one ends up in the hospital, there are no major catastrophic accidents, and the house doesn't burn down (*knock on wood, my mind has been jumping to all of these conclusions) I don't see a problem happening... especially with shuborno at my side.

Tonight I have an orchestra rehearsal. I am concerned - I have not practised nearly enough and they are putting those of us from the back at the front tonight. I must say this induces a panic attack in me, and makes me not like orchestra as much. It's not to say I haven't practised - I have, I've even taken the material to violin lessons. I just don't like the sense of panic or of being watched.

Belt testing in a week - another activity which I am skeptical of my abilities. Shuborno thinks that I will be fine. That may be the case... but I'm talking myself into anxiety about it. I need to learn how to get over performance anxiety. Some how I thought violin and debating all those years would help... and it does to a certain extent, until I am being "graded" or tested. That's when I get extremely nervous and forget the things that I legitimately know.

I wish I could go back to those days of bad poetry. Although I didn't really have heinsight to see that it wasn't so bad back then (mind you there are certain aspects that I'm not really sure would be great to go back to... I think I need to rethink that lol). I'll admit it now, high school was easy. I wish I had worked harder - because maybe that work would have made now easier. Hard to tell.

So let the marathon begin. I'll be back.
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Nov. 8th, 2007 @ 11:12 pm stuff and fluff
I don't write here that often anymore. I suppose it is really a matter of a lifestyle change. I'm not all together sure. It may also be that my life isn't overly interesting. It currently consists of a moderate amount of work/school and wedding planning.

I'm playing with Orchestra@UWaterloo again. I have a really hard time convincing myself to leave the house... this also means that I'm reluctant to go to rehearsals. However, I generally enjoy it. I don't have many friends at orchestra. I would likely enjoy it more if I did. I would also put more effort into it likely. Regardless - things are improving. Consistency is my biggest issue with violin these days. I need to do something to make my life more consistent.

Wedding plans are under way. We have settled our wedding party and started with communication. Stag and Doe plans are under way for February. We've tentatively chosen our invitations. We've gone for an initial shop on Gerrard and figured out some of the styles we will be going for in terms of clothes/jewelery and the what not. Really this is just the tip of the iceburg. It is a pretty overwhelming experience. In fact, it is one that I wasn't really anticipating. I don't know what I expected - that the planning just happened and you showed up? That isn't really the way it is if you have opinions about the way you want things. Unfortunately I have opinions - and so that leads to work.

This weekend I am heading to Coburg Ontario. Exciting place I know. So exciting people generally don't know where Coburg is unless they've spent a lot of time going to Kingston or Ottawa. Coburg is the home of the big apple. IT is also the home of this years SAO (Suzuki Association of Ontario) conference. It will be a busy weekend. I am a board member of the SAO working on a young/new Suzuki teacher initive. I will have the opportunity to spend some time with friends though - and that will be nice.

So that's life in a nutshell... I best be off to bed. I am cooking a big meal (maybe big that's yet to be determined) tomorrow, and have lots of essays to work on.
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Oct. 9th, 2007 @ 12:02 am happy gobble gobble
Haven't written in quite some time - mostly because I haven't had the time.

Thanksgiving was rather nice - a nice change of pace from a hectic lifestyle that I haven't been enjoying much. I really should have done more work (or some work)... I tried, but failed... this week is going to be intense trying to catch up.

Isn't that a ridiculous concept? I have to try and catch up because I decided to have a holiday for my holiday.

Shuborno and I are going to the New Pornographers! He got tickets tonight off E-Bay. We were dumb and totally decided to go and then didn't buy tickets... then they sold out.

Next weekend we're going shopping in Toronto to figure out wedding stuff. We're going to figure out what sort of styles I like, etc. Makes me nervous a bit - its a lot of work... and I get overwhelmed in those sorts of situations, but it needs to be done.

We went to my mums for thanksgiving dinner tonight. It was nice and quiet. The food was tasty. Last night we had thanksgiving at home, and the night before we had thanksgiving dinner at Ellie's place in the boonies... Needless to say I'm a little thanksgivinging out. But it certainly was nice and I enjoyed the company of all.

It's after midnight and I should go to bed. Sweet dreams all
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May. 25th, 2007 @ 02:42 pm May today, gone tomorrow
I think that May is going by much too quickly. I came home from work early today- I will be doing more work once "after school" hours occur, because I need to do some calling. Emily is watching Barney though- I can't say that is overly helpful when doing work lol.

The birthday went well. I am in denial that I am 22 years of age though. I still feel 12... Well- I can't say that, I want to be 12 again is more correct. The other day I dropped Trevor off at school to prepare for Grade 6 camp. It feels like yesterday- but it was 10 years ago.

10 years ago I didn't really amount to much... not sure that has changed that much now though lol... An almost finished degree, a half eaten loaf of bread.

I'm tired. I think I'll go nap now.
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Mar. 20th, 2007 @ 03:58 pm ahhhhh
Current Mood: stressed
Too much to do, Too much to do, Too much to do, Too much to do
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Must finish paper, must practise violin, must clean room,must teach! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
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Mar. 5th, 2007 @ 07:21 pm An update - to date...
Current Mood: sick
Well, I've disappeared. Or so it would seem by looking at my lonely journal. I would have thought that getting a lap top would have given me the opportunity to write more often. In fact it is quite the opposite. Now I spend lots of time in public places on a computer.

I shall update starting on Thursday. Thursday was an eventful day- yet very uneventful. I did not go to class- as it was cancelled. I did not go to orchestra, as it was cancelled. I did however drive to the REC centre in snow squalls to a job interview that I'm now beginning to feel that I did horribly on. I just wish there were some way to know what I could have done to make it a better interview. IT seemed so relaxed- so calm as if I got it...but then I saw Trisha on the weekend during work training and I just couldn't tell- well, no, that's not true. I felt as if my inital instincts were wrong and that I didn't get the job. It's hard to tell. My mind is fixated on it... it's what I've always wanted- what I've been working for for years. My heart will be broken if I don't get it. Yet, it is out of my hands. They said I would know by Friday of this week if I didn't get it. I guess I will know when I don't receive a call by Friday that I don't have a job for the summer :( I'm the most pesimistic girl alive! Although if I keep really pesimistic and get the job I will be so over joyed the world will be a fantastic place to be. Disappointed by expecting it? Excited by getting it? I say that keeping pesimistic is the way to go on this one.

Friday: School Cancelled- again. The reason this was nice is because it pushed my Monday exam to WEdnesday. Thus, I'm lying here contemplating studying for it. Something I really ought to do- but can't yet bring myself too... I just don't feel well enough. Actually- that's a lie, I've studied lots. It just currently is not sinking in. More time is good though, very good.
I also went over to Shuborno's to practise for my karate belt test. Came home, ate some dinner, and chilled with Melissa and Zamin. I love those kids. I really wish I got to spend more time with them. I feel so much more like myself when I get time with them. I have this "lost" feeling that has come from being in 3rd year without any specific place/goal. I know I want to teach- I don't know what, I don't know where... I don't know who! so many questions. It was good to spend time with my friends who just know me as me, no questions asked.

Saturday: Work training from 10-1. That was a bunch of fun. A good group of people that I get to work with for March break camp. IT's defintely good times. I was a bit uncomfortable when my engagement became the massive part of conversation. I don't particularly like being the centre of attention= and it certainly came off that way. Not that it is a bad thing however, it was just odd... At least it was over something good. I'm pretty pumped to work for the City for march though... god I hope I get that job. *keeping fingers crossed, certainly can't think about anything else right now*

After work training I headed over to Karate. We got our orange belts! I messed up in some pretty rediculous area's that I've never messed up at before. I really wish I had been more prepared. IT was embarrasing for Trevor to do that much better at it than me. Sensei Kam has big ideas about what Shuborno and I should be able to accomplish. I remain a skeptic. We'll see though- I'll keep working hard, I'll keep being dedicated. That's all I can do, right?

Post Karate was time to head to London. Oh my goodness what a scavenger hunt! What a party! it was really good times. I wasn't going to drink... then they brought out the jello. Needless to say a mistake.. but without horrible consequences. Therefore, not really a mistake at all. What do people do at parties? Come on!

Sunday: I finally got home from the London extravaganza and crashed.. I slept for a good 16 hours (with 1/2 hour to get dinner in the middle). That brings me to today:

Monday: I have a cold. I feel miserable.. so I am procrastinating. My class was cancelled tonight do to weather. I was contemplating skipping just because I want to sleep. Very relieved to see that I don't need to make such a decision. I'm not fond of skipping - especially when the class is only once a week. However, class earlier today was too much of a challenge and it was only review. Coughing and sneezing etc. on people is generally not advisable.

Anyway- I'm heading to sleep... need a good nap for me
Night Night all...
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Feb. 14th, 2007 @ 05:47 pm This is why I love what I do
I found a video on youtube that seems to really sum up why I love my job as a suzuki teacher...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sYANkPn_d2M&mode=related&search=

this is what I want to do with my life...
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Feb. 7th, 2007 @ 01:12 pm It's been awhile
Current Mood: nerdy
It's been awhile, so I thought I'd write.

My term is well underway. I'm taking an interesting selection of courses:

Anth 101, Physical and Archeological anthropology
SMS 363: Gender, Sexuality and the history of film
Phil 200B: Great Works of Western Philosophy Part 2 (starting at Descartes and moving on in history)
Phil 363: Philosophy of Language (dealing with semantics, logic, meaning, etc)

yeah it's going well... I'm going to Mexico with Shuborno in 11 days. Certainly doing a count down lol. Mind you I have a lot of work to do before that day comes. I still have 2 exams and a major assignment due next week. On top of that I need to go buy luggage, a bathing suit, have needles to protect myself from evil disease. etc. etc.

yup, that's about it for me right now. Back to work and class I go... urr
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Jan. 8th, 2007 @ 06:44 pm Rest in Peace Mike
Current Mood: disappointed
Mike Leveseque and I weren't that close. Regardless I do remember spending a number of hours in the library having little chats about this and that, and a great laugh here and there. Likely one of the friendliest people I've ever met really. It's such a shame when lives are lost so early. I don't know why, or how it happened. It's really unfortunate. I keep thinking to myself about how my life has been pretty fabulous these past few days. I'm really fortunate to have those I love around me. I missed the funeral - I wish I had looked up the information sooner. Some how it just didn't hit me until today of what this really meant. Certainly today will be a day of reflection.

Obituaries - Jan. 6, 2007

MICHAEL LEVESQUE 1985-2007 Michael passed away suddenly, on Wednesday, January 3, 2007, at the age of 21 years. Michael will be forever loved by his parents, Terry and Janet Levesque; brother, Rob and his dear friend, Melody Ashworth. He will also be lovingly remembered by his grandmother, Constance Levesque; aunts, Caroleigh and Patricia Collier, Kathleen Levesque and uncles, John Collier, Christopher, Paul, Rene and Michael Levesque. Michael will now be reunited with his infant sister, Catherine Elise and grandparents, Paul C. Levesque and Robert and Hazel Collier. Michael was a 3rd year Honours Psychology student at the Wilfrid Laurier University and was a graduate of Waterloo Collegiate Institute. He excelled at all he tried to do. The Mass of Christian Burial in celebration of Michael's life will be held at St. Michael's RC Church, at the corner of University Ave. and Hemlock Street in Waterloo on Monday, January 8, 2007 at 10 a.m. A private family interment will take place in Parkview Cemetery on Monday afternoon. Condolences for the family and donations to World Vision can be arranged through the Erb and Good Family Funeral Home, 171 King Street South, Waterloo, 519-745-8445 or www.erbgood.com In living memory of Michael, a tree will be planted through the Trees for Learning Program by the funeral home.
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Jan. 4th, 2007 @ 01:27 pm End of an era
Current Mood: anxious
There is nothing like telling the parents that you are getting married to make you feel like a child. I'm so excited, so jittery, so happy, yet have never been so scared shitless in my life. The thing is, I really feel we can do this, and I really do feel that this is the time in our lives to be making these sorts of changes. It will be a challenge- but a positive one. It will have ups and downs I'm sure- but that's the case in any family and any relationship. We've made the committment to each other to work things out through thick and thin, and the past few years have really given us many opportunities to do such things.

I told my brother - certainly felt like the little sister. I think it freaked him out/shocked him a bit. I'm declaring myself an adult before he's ready to make that sort of change - and he's 7 years older.

I told Melissa... I told my mum, and I told the Clin family. All seem very happy and none surprised, just happy.

and now, I return to school to realize I'm still a student. A student who has to read Frege and Heideggar, Descartes and Hume. A student who really can not let her responsibilities go otherwise that just demonstrates that I'm a little kid not ready to take on the world.

Yup... world, here I com.
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 10:13 pm Tournament tomorrow.
I am very much looking forward to the Karate tournament shuborno and I have tomorrow. This certainly is a filled weekend! I won a spa $100 gift certificate at the company dinner last night- I may need it after being destroyed at the tournie tomorrow!

Five Fold Path of Shito-Ryu
as written by Master Kenwa Mabuni

1: Shoshin Wasureru nakara (Ishi)
Never forget the spirit of first beginning (Will / Deterination)
2: Reigi okotaru nakare (Dotoku)
Never neglect courtesy and etiquette (Moral Virtue)
3: Doryuku okotaru nakare (Haten)
Never neglect effort (Growth / Development)
4: Joshin kakeru nakare (Joshiki)
Never lose common sense (Common Sense)
5: Wa midasu nakare (Heiwa)
Never disturb harmony (Peace)
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Dec. 4th, 2006 @ 10:17 am Tired!
Current Mood: accomplished
Karate this weekend was awesome. I'm exhausted from it still- but feel accomplished. I have to practise more for the tournament next weekend. Shuborno is going to clean up,I'm pretty certain... although you'll never catch him saying anything of the sort :) His form is exact and his level of concentration far exceeds our current "ranking". However, anything for him below perfect is not good enough :)

Final paper for cog sci is well under way... I think. I have lots of ideas,now I need to write them out in a logical sequence. That will be my challenge.

Some of the muscles that are sore in my body I was unaware that I even had!

I think I'm going to go find a comfy sleeping spot in the library where I will learn through osmosis...or actually try to make a real outline.

Peach out.
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Nov. 16th, 2006 @ 11:36 am Oh Boy
I haven't been writing here for the past while. Life just got really busy and especially when reading other peoples journals I'm noticing that I really just don't have any interesting comments to make. Unless of course someone wants to start debating the notion of consciousness and whether or not it indicates one has free will. I'm up to my nose in books- by the end of today I will be caught up. Not sure how long that will last though- I still have a lot on my plate. Less than one month of school left! boo yea!
Well that is until x-mas... then it will all continue. I dream of the day that I end for good and walk into the land of unemployable philosophy graduate.
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Sep. 28th, 2006 @ 08:40 pm Feeling Blah
Current Mood: aggravated
So, it's Thursday... and what a Thursday it's been.

I went to the doctor today. My breathing hurts, I can't take it anymore. Apparently I've got bronchitus well on it's way to pnemonia. They also suspect that I might have Mono... that doesn't say much though, because today was the 4th blood test i've had for Mono this year. They always think I have Mono. Blah!

I've been at home since mid-Tuesday. That's when I stopped going to class because I started feeling horrible.

I haven't seen Shuborno since our Monday night date. Not a surprise though, he's always busy with this or that. I don't really see him much these days. Although I often find out about the status of our relationship by reading his journal... It seems to be good right now. That's important to keep in mind.

I'm sick and grumpy. I feel so horrible. Teaching, or lack there of is stressing me out. The whole situation has been so sticky. I don't really know what to do about it- but I guess that's just it, I can do nothing!

I accidently just clicked on my brother's ex-girlfriends msn... There is a picture of her new boyfriend and my brother's dog. Named Norton which is after the motorcycle he inherited when his dad died. (Yes, my brother is my half brother, long and confusing story there). The world is a sick and twisted place.

I'm going to bed now, to lie in pain... because it hurts A LOT to lie down. Damn lungs, why can't they just be amputated.

I've had about enough- I can't take it anymore... I just want it all to be over. The end
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Sep. 25th, 2006 @ 10:05 am stupid people are bothering me today.
Stupid people are bothering me today. I totally slept in- but managed to get to clas sonly 3 minutes late. My prof now knows my name- because I'm "that late girl".

I totally could teach myself everything I'm learning in 1/8 of the time if there weren't so many stupid people in the world.

I feel sick. I want to go home. But I have to hand in that stupid homework assingnment... bahch!
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Sep. 11th, 2006 @ 09:51 am Ethics etc.
I had my first Ethics class of the term this morning. The prof speaks faster than me and perhaps seems even more random that I am. This could certainly prove to be a good thing for an 8:30 am class. I must admit that I have avoided at all costs taking an 8:30 am class. I really dislike doing things in the morning. But I have also become aware looking at my grades that there is a fairly large trend of my doing better when I take earlier classes instead of night classes... so not much I can do about that.

I am quickly settling back to my routines. Get up, shower, eat breakfast, bike to school. In many ways its the exact same thing that I have done since I was about 8 years old. I think I actually like being in third year though. I'm feeling like I'm getting a hang of this whole thing and settling down enough that I can just be me. It really is a nice feeling. I also enjoyed when the prof asked today who had taken a philosophy course before- being one of those few who had... or when she asked about who had read Plato how I could think to myself... "Wow I've done all the readings for the next month and a half, and all of them I've done about 6 times now". I don't know why that's refreshing and somewhat rewarding feeling- but it is. Maybe it's just a sign that I'm lazy and really should take some more variety in my classes. I don't feel bad about this one though. It is manditory in order for me to get my degree. I can't complain if some of the reading has overlap, it certainly won't be the case for the rest of my courses!

My teaching schedule also goes into full swing today. I start at 1-2 with my students Emily and Alison, then I head to the school for 3:30 to teach Emily, Helen, Brittany, Justin, Marty, etc. etc. Speaking of which I never did sort out the marty thing, oh boy! We've double booked his lesson so that he has Piano and Violin at exactly the same time. Yikes! It should be a full day indeed!

I have class in half an hour- I don't actually know where it is though so I should probably head out.

Hope all are having good days back to where ever you happen to be!
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Sep. 9th, 2006 @ 05:03 pm BINGO, baby-sitting and blah
Current Mood: tired
Today I created a BINGO game for my young beginner violin group class. It is pretty awesome. Looks good enough that I'm now planning on selling a few at the Suzuki Association of Ontario conference in October.

I'm feeling pretty tired today for no apparent reason. Although I am kinda sick. I've got a nice wheeze and cough. I went to the market this morning. It looks like they're expanding. Emily was pretty excited to see the horses and such like.

Yesterday I did a whole lot of nothing as well. Although it was my first day back to work of the year. I had a good time teaching. I think teacher training has paid off. I am now able to look at my students and not only see what is wrong with their playing, but now know how to fix it. It's actually a pretty rewarding feeling. I think I'm on the right track with them. Obviously I've got a bit of work to do- but they're sounding pretty good.

Today I might hang out with Shuborno at some point if he comes over. BUT he was massively drinking with a stag party last night and doesn't sound like he's in great shape. I'm baby-sitting tonight as Mike and Anita have gone to see yet another Stratford play. The next one I get to attend! Which I'm happy about because I've certainly sat around baby-sitting so that they could go to them.

Ahh such is life.

I think I'll be off and do more of nothing on my last weekend before school starts. 2 more sleeps, 2 more sleeps...
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