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Oct. 4th, 2010 @ 06:51 pm Baby to Be
So life is changing... in many good ways. We are very excited to announce that we are expecting a little girl at the end of January.
She is the most delightful little thing (and this is judging by seeing her in ultrasounds and spending each day with her).

Babies are awesome. I am very happy. Being pregnant has been quite the interesting experience. I think I shall write more about it later. I've decided the thoughts of this time are something that should be documented.

Ahh little girl we're so excited to meet you!
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Feb. 6th, 2009 @ 10:39 am To Do List
I have decided that I need to make a to-do list and have it in a place that I will stop losing it. Naturally my journal seems appropriate.

1) Finish theory assignments - take them to Erna's (This weekend)
2) Make up piano test/dictation? I really hope so
3) Study for History midterm next week. (Feb.12)
4) Practise violin
5) Scholarship application with video (Feb.15)
6) Job Application for the summer (Feb.13)
7) Shuborno's birthday (Feb. 11)
8) Figure out when to hang out with Sitelle and Denise over reading week
9) Make up lessons for students
10) Study for theory midterm
11) Study for Phil midterm
12) History group project (31st of March)
13) Jazz presentation (10th of March)
14) Concert Review for Jazz (due the 10th of February)
15) Cash cheques (now)
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Nov. 19th, 2007 @ 12:56 pm peanuts
Current Mood: amusedamused
I went to the allergist this morning for my official peanut challenge. This is taken when you test negatively on the skin test. First what they did is they created a solution from a fresh peanut (what is called fresh food testing), put it on my arm and pricked it with a needle. 10ish minutes later the doctor came in and said that I had in fact tested negatively.

The next step was to actually eat peanuts. My whole life I have walked around with the concept that peanuts were like poison. So to me, this was like being told to drink bleach. Regardless I did it. The first step was to lick a peanut. It was horrible. I think I gave that face that kids give when they eat something really horrid. Liver or those peas in a baby food jar for instance. 20 minutes later I had to eat 1/10 of a peanut. This was even worse. I didn't react though... another 20 minutes passed and I had to eat 1/2 peanut. Another 20 minutes and I got to eat a full peanut. Once that time passed I had to eat 10 peanuts. Shuborno was laughing pretty hard while I was trying to eat the 10. He said something about trying to spite him by just eating one after another without making a face. I tried really hard to get through it, and did successfully.

We ended up talking to another guy in the waiting room. He understood what I was going for. He was also allergic to nuts, but also to shellfish. 9 am and he had to do a shrimp testing. He looked at us and said "man, I should have brought sauce". I can't imagine having to eat shrimp for breakfast lol.

So that's that. I'm no longer allergic to peanuts. Sometime this week I need to go for blood work to have it sent off so that walnuts and hazelnuts can be tested as well. If they come out negative for allergic reaction then I get to go through this process two more times. Until then I must say it is some what of a relief to know that I won't die if I eat something with a peanut in it or with peanut oil.

I think I may go buy a drumstick... I've never had one. They always looked really good and I was really jealous of people when they got to eat them.

I guess there are some perks to growing up. HA!
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Nov. 15th, 2007 @ 04:30 pm The marathon begins
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
The marathon begins...
Mike and Anita left today around 2 pm. They will return next Wednesday sometime... I have Trevor and Ian for the duration. They took Emily with them. I will miss Emily greatly - she causes some great comic relief in my life - also she knows me well. For instance the day I said "Emily, I hate my life" (I realize you shouldn't say things like that to a 4 year old but that's beside the point... she asked me what was wrong, so I responded accordingly) Emily responded "Lizzie, you don't hate your life you hate your dilaties". Dilaties of course really means "responsibilities".

The plus side of things - They are okay with Shuborno staying over while they are away. I will need him for my sanity. He has also kindly agreed to step up when I am unable to take kids places etc because of school or teaching or what not. He is also going with me to my allergist appointment on Monday for my fresh food peanut testing (yes, I may have outgrown the nut allergies... but all can not be cleared until I go through the full testing.)
Also - Anita and Emily and Mike not being home means during the day I have the house to myself. I need to utilize this to get my essays done. This will not be a small task - and I am unsure if I will be capable of doing so between Friday afternoon, Monday afternoon, and Tuesday...

On the down side of things - For whatever reason I've been feeling pretty anxious about taking care of the boys. This is strange for a number of reasons - 1) I've done it many many times before 2) they are much older than the other times I've taken care of them. But the flip side to that is that they are much older than they were before and so the kind of responsibilities that I need to have are different - ex. guiding them on their way for getting ready for school. It seemed much easier when I could just do it for them, drop them off and say have a nice day. They also have more activities than they used to have. Especially Trevor - and keeping them straight and making sure everyone is in the right place at the right time is a full time job!

We'll see how it goes. As long as no one ends up in the hospital, there are no major catastrophic accidents, and the house doesn't burn down (*knock on wood, my mind has been jumping to all of these conclusions) I don't see a problem happening... especially with shuborno at my side.

Tonight I have an orchestra rehearsal. I am concerned - I have not practised nearly enough and they are putting those of us from the back at the front tonight. I must say this induces a panic attack in me, and makes me not like orchestra as much. It's not to say I haven't practised - I have, I've even taken the material to violin lessons. I just don't like the sense of panic or of being watched.

Belt testing in a week - another activity which I am skeptical of my abilities. Shuborno thinks that I will be fine. That may be the case... but I'm talking myself into anxiety about it. I need to learn how to get over performance anxiety. Some how I thought violin and debating all those years would help... and it does to a certain extent, until I am being "graded" or tested. That's when I get extremely nervous and forget the things that I legitimately know.

I wish I could go back to those days of bad poetry. Although I didn't really have heinsight to see that it wasn't so bad back then (mind you there are certain aspects that I'm not really sure would be great to go back to... I think I need to rethink that lol). I'll admit it now, high school was easy. I wish I had worked harder - because maybe that work would have made now easier. Hard to tell.

So let the marathon begin. I'll be back.
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Nov. 8th, 2007 @ 11:12 pm stuff and fluff
I don't write here that often anymore. I suppose it is really a matter of a lifestyle change. I'm not all together sure. It may also be that my life isn't overly interesting. It currently consists of a moderate amount of work/school and wedding planning.

I'm playing with Orchestra@UWaterloo again. I have a really hard time convincing myself to leave the house... this also means that I'm reluctant to go to rehearsals. However, I generally enjoy it. I don't have many friends at orchestra. I would likely enjoy it more if I did. I would also put more effort into it likely. Regardless - things are improving. Consistency is my biggest issue with violin these days. I need to do something to make my life more consistent.

Wedding plans are under way. We have settled our wedding party and started with communication. Stag and Doe plans are under way for February. We've tentatively chosen our invitations. We've gone for an initial shop on Gerrard and figured out some of the styles we will be going for in terms of clothes/jewelery and the what not. Really this is just the tip of the iceburg. It is a pretty overwhelming experience. In fact, it is one that I wasn't really anticipating. I don't know what I expected - that the planning just happened and you showed up? That isn't really the way it is if you have opinions about the way you want things. Unfortunately I have opinions - and so that leads to work.

This weekend I am heading to Coburg Ontario. Exciting place I know. So exciting people generally don't know where Coburg is unless they've spent a lot of time going to Kingston or Ottawa. Coburg is the home of the big apple. IT is also the home of this years SAO (Suzuki Association of Ontario) conference. It will be a busy weekend. I am a board member of the SAO working on a young/new Suzuki teacher initive. I will have the opportunity to spend some time with friends though - and that will be nice.

So that's life in a nutshell... I best be off to bed. I am cooking a big meal (maybe big that's yet to be determined) tomorrow, and have lots of essays to work on.
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Oct. 9th, 2007 @ 12:02 am happy gobble gobble
Haven't written in quite some time - mostly because I haven't had the time.

Thanksgiving was rather nice - a nice change of pace from a hectic lifestyle that I haven't been enjoying much. I really should have done more work (or some work)... I tried, but failed... this week is going to be intense trying to catch up.

Isn't that a ridiculous concept? I have to try and catch up because I decided to have a holiday for my holiday.

Shuborno and I are going to the New Pornographers! He got tickets tonight off E-Bay. We were dumb and totally decided to go and then didn't buy tickets... then they sold out.

Next weekend we're going shopping in Toronto to figure out wedding stuff. We're going to figure out what sort of styles I like, etc. Makes me nervous a bit - its a lot of work... and I get overwhelmed in those sorts of situations, but it needs to be done.

We went to my mums for thanksgiving dinner tonight. It was nice and quiet. The food was tasty. Last night we had thanksgiving at home, and the night before we had thanksgiving dinner at Ellie's place in the boonies... Needless to say I'm a little thanksgivinging out. But it certainly was nice and I enjoyed the company of all.

It's after midnight and I should go to bed. Sweet dreams all
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May. 25th, 2007 @ 02:42 pm May today, gone tomorrow
I think that May is going by much too quickly. I came home from work early today- I will be doing more work once "after school" hours occur, because I need to do some calling. Emily is watching Barney though- I can't say that is overly helpful when doing work lol.

The birthday went well. I am in denial that I am 22 years of age though. I still feel 12... Well- I can't say that, I want to be 12 again is more correct. The other day I dropped Trevor off at school to prepare for Grade 6 camp. It feels like yesterday- but it was 10 years ago.

10 years ago I didn't really amount to much... not sure that has changed that much now though lol... An almost finished degree, a half eaten loaf of bread.

I'm tired. I think I'll go nap now.
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Mar. 20th, 2007 @ 03:58 pm ahhhhh
Current Mood: stressedstressed
Too much to do, Too much to do, Too much to do, Too much to do

Must finish paper, must practise violin, must clean room,must teach! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
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Mar. 5th, 2007 @ 07:21 pm An update - to date...
Current Mood: sicksick
Well, I've disappeared. Or so it would seem by looking at my lonely journal. I would have thought that getting a lap top would have given me the opportunity to write more often. In fact it is quite the opposite. Now I spend lots of time in public places on a computer.

I shall update starting on Thursday. Thursday was an eventful day- yet very uneventful. I did not go to class- as it was cancelled. I did not go to orchestra, as it was cancelled. I did however drive to the REC centre in snow squalls to a job interview that I'm now beginning to feel that I did horribly on. I just wish there were some way to know what I could have done to make it a better interview. IT seemed so relaxed- so calm as if I got it...but then I saw Trisha on the weekend during work training and I just couldn't tell- well, no, that's not true. I felt as if my inital instincts were wrong and that I didn't get the job. It's hard to tell. My mind is fixated on it... it's what I've always wanted- what I've been working for for years. My heart will be broken if I don't get it. Yet, it is out of my hands. They said I would know by Friday of this week if I didn't get it. I guess I will know when I don't receive a call by Friday that I don't have a job for the summer :( I'm the most pesimistic girl alive! Although if I keep really pesimistic and get the job I will be so over joyed the world will be a fantastic place to be. Disappointed by expecting it? Excited by getting it? I say that keeping pesimistic is the way to go on this one.

Friday: School Cancelled- again. The reason this was nice is because it pushed my Monday exam to WEdnesday. Thus, I'm lying here contemplating studying for it. Something I really ought to do- but can't yet bring myself too... I just don't feel well enough. Actually- that's a lie, I've studied lots. It just currently is not sinking in. More time is good though, very good.
I also went over to Shuborno's to practise for my karate belt test. Came home, ate some dinner, and chilled with Melissa and Zamin. I love those kids. I really wish I got to spend more time with them. I feel so much more like myself when I get time with them. I have this "lost" feeling that has come from being in 3rd year without any specific place/goal. I know I want to teach- I don't know what, I don't know where... I don't know who! so many questions. It was good to spend time with my friends who just know me as me, no questions asked.

Saturday: Work training from 10-1. That was a bunch of fun. A good group of people that I get to work with for March break camp. IT's defintely good times. I was a bit uncomfortable when my engagement became the massive part of conversation. I don't particularly like being the centre of attention= and it certainly came off that way. Not that it is a bad thing however, it was just odd... At least it was over something good. I'm pretty pumped to work for the City for march though... god I hope I get that job. *keeping fingers crossed, certainly can't think about anything else right now*

After work training I headed over to Karate. We got our orange belts! I messed up in some pretty rediculous area's that I've never messed up at before. I really wish I had been more prepared. IT was embarrasing for Trevor to do that much better at it than me. Sensei Kam has big ideas about what Shuborno and I should be able to accomplish. I remain a skeptic. We'll see though- I'll keep working hard, I'll keep being dedicated. That's all I can do, right?

Post Karate was time to head to London. Oh my goodness what a scavenger hunt! What a party! it was really good times. I wasn't going to drink... then they brought out the jello. Needless to say a mistake.. but without horrible consequences. Therefore, not really a mistake at all. What do people do at parties? Come on!

Sunday: I finally got home from the London extravaganza and crashed.. I slept for a good 16 hours (with 1/2 hour to get dinner in the middle). That brings me to today:

Monday: I have a cold. I feel miserable.. so I am procrastinating. My class was cancelled tonight do to weather. I was contemplating skipping just because I want to sleep. Very relieved to see that I don't need to make such a decision. I'm not fond of skipping - especially when the class is only once a week. However, class earlier today was too much of a challenge and it was only review. Coughing and sneezing etc. on people is generally not advisable.

Anyway- I'm heading to sleep... need a good nap for me
Night Night all...
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Feb. 14th, 2007 @ 05:47 pm This is why I love what I do
I found a video on youtube that seems to really sum up why I love my job as a suzuki teacher...

this is what I want to do with my life...
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